So its been almost a month here in New Zealand and I cannot even begin to explain the ways the Lord has stretched me, pulled me, loved on me and blessed me. I've wrestled with what to share with you guys and the Lord has continued to lay this on my heart to share. I have been growing and learning the gift God has blessed me with of visions. The Lord has shown me so much through the Holy Spirit and one in particular He has placed on my heart to share. It was the last night of training camp and during worship I was on my knees before my Maker. I began to roll around tossed in this violent unrelenting water. He was cleansing my entire being. I was then looking down from a balcony in a cathedral. This place was beautiful with vaulted ceilings and intricate decor. A girl in a simple flowing long white dress stood at the back waiting to walk down the aisle. Her long brown hair spiraled down her shoulders while her face was focused and fixed straight ahead. She never looked left or right. On the sides were demons barred from being able to touch her. They yelled insults and lies, but she was deft to them. They were furiously and violently trying to come at her and break free but were stopped every time. She began to walk forward focused only on her love. She walked with peace and confidence eagerly ready to give her heart away. Her expression was soft, yet stern. She came to the end of her journey down the aisle and stopped. Looking up at the cross, she picked up her dress and stepped onto it. She then turned around stretching one arm out at a time and with a look of satisfaction and contentment died. The evil beings screamed at what had happened, for they had failed. The ending sight was beautiful as a light too bright to look at shown down on her and the vision was gone and darkness flooded back across my eyes. I heard the Lord say, "My Beloved, this is you." May the vision of You be the death of me God. Each day since this I have walked down that aisle and died to myself. Yet, each day brings with it its own struggles and I have looked left and right and become distracted and frightened by what was ahead and the evil around me. Daily I have to look back to the cross and know I am nothing. I am only a vessel for Jesus. By loosing all of my passions I have gained eternal Passion.
