In all honesty, it feels as if I have been on this college campus in Georgia for more than four days now. I can’t even stifle my excitement because we are FINALLY leaving for New Zealand tomorrow! I have realized these past few days that I needed to be here at training camp before I could head out on our mission so that God could fully restore and heal my heart through His unfailing love that can weave into the tiniest and darkest of places within my heart where it feels as if the light has not broken through in a very long time. He has reminded me and confirmed to me that he really is my one and only need. He can absolutely use a girl who has struggles, insecurities, doubts, fears, and wounds to go out into a country where many people have never known about the unconditional love and beautiful relationship that comes from a God who knows their name, speaks their language, and loves them enough just to send a team of seven ordinary people to tell them just how much they are loved and desired by God, their creator.
I am ordinary, and I have nothing in my human nature to offer these beloved people that will save them and bring them hope. However, God can! He can and will speak in and through me to reach these people that He yearns for. Through my weakness, God can work. Through my lack of knowledge, God can speak. Through my nervousness, God can heal. I pray that during these next two months, it would not be me who is speaking to these people and trying to show them just how much they are loved, cared for, and desired by a Father who would do absolutely ANYTHING to live in them and have a relationship with them. I do pray, however, that it would be God who does all these things. I am honored to play a part in this grand adventure, and I look forward to forming some amazing relationships with my team and New Zealanders that will transform my life. I know that I will not be the same person when I return home, but I could not be more stoked about it!! LET THE ADVENTURE BEGIN!!!
